| i just dont know |
[31 Aug 2004|10:53pm] |
it's wierd that i am still trying to do this whole internet hing with a guy that lives like 800m away from me. i dotn know how to let him know that i fell head over hills for him without him thinking that i am a ferak eith no life.
see when we first met i lied to him and sent him a fake photo. well he got over it but now that we talk i feel klike he doesn't trust me. and seeing as i like him i dont know what to do. then ther is the whole andrew thing. like i jsut dont know what to do about guys anymore. there r jsut to mant things that i have to fix in my life and i dont think that i can live with bringing someone else into my drama.
thats all for right now but i am sure that i will figure somemore stuff out laterz..ok night.
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| I love you and goodnight |
[30 Aug 2004|11:03pm] |
This is a poem i wrote. I plan on Giving it to that very special someone when the time is right. i am putting it here so that all who want to view it and give it to their special someones can. i hope that you all enjoy it.:}
i wish that i could be with you and hold you,
if thats all right,
and whisper in your ear,
__________,i love you and goodnight.
i wish that i could explain,
whats going through my head,
sometimes it's hard to deal with,
so i just go to bed.
when i try to kiss your lips,
i feel like i want to cry,
you push me away,
each and everytime.
i try to hold you close,
everytime i can,
you just move away,
can i at least hold your hand?
i try to say i love you,
i try to let you know,
your the only one for me,
so plesse dont go.
when i tried to kiss your lips,
i started to tremble in fear,
i did not want to lose,
this love i hold so dear.
i wish that i could be with you,
and hold you , if thats alright,
and whisper in your ear,
__________ i love you and goodnight.
By:Shaun Sally
i hope that you guys and girls enjoy that poem and give it to someone you love or someone that you want to know that you love. remember tomorrow last forever so live for today.
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[30 Aug 2004|09:51pm] |
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| Is this true Love??? |
[30 Aug 2004|07:52pm] |
i am unsure what real love is. I have been unable to experience such a thing all of my life. Or so i thought. i met a young man by the name of Andrew. from what i understand he has fallen in love with me and i am not for sure that i can say the same thing about him. i really do like him and i have these strange feelings like i can't wait for him to call. or sometimes i sit in the bed and cry because i dont know what he is doing and i have no idea if he really cares for me.
about a week ago me and him got into this arguent about oru relationship. i didn't know if it would have been wise for s to continue to see one another because of our age differences. he is only 14 and i am 17. it was on a friday and i told him that i didn't know if we should continue to date because i was starting to feel like a pervert. i mean he is only 14. to me that is like a little kid. sure he might be alittle mature for his age but that doesn't give me the right to date him. everyone that i asked about it told me that they didn't think that it was right and that they thought that i should break up with him. so i told him all of this and all he said was why the fuck do you care what anyone else thinks. and for about a week after that i heard nothing from him. the last thing that he said to was that he loved me and for a week that was the only thing that i thought about.
i couldn't bring myself to admit it but i am begginning to feel that i might be inlove with this kid. i dont know what i should do and i make really bad choices when i dont know what to do. sometimes i drink and sometimes i fight but i dont want to do these things anymore. al i want to do is be with andrew and i am willing to take any consequense that goes along with it.
tell me is this true love????????????
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